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Name: Sam
Birthday: 7/6/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: basketball, boys, fun, guitar (maybe someday i'll be able to play), boys with guitars, running, cheesecake and fried ocra (but not together), history, writing, blah blah blah
Expertise: everything,
but i specialize in wasting time. and the Duke Blue Devils
Occupation: Student
Industry: Media
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  CrAzY6867
Member Since:
11/22/2004
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| ok, so i've officially been a mom for one week and two days. how does it feel, you ask? ah, exhausting! actually, its still pretty surreal. so surreally exhausting. it still doesn't feel like it all really happened. i can sit here and think, did that really happen? did i really give birth last week? was i really that big? wtf??? anyway, i'm learning quick this whole parenting thing. on the one hand, i am scared stiff. am i suppossed to hold her this much? what is that noise? wait, what is she doing, is that normal?! should i be working on developing her vocabulary now so she has a chance at an ivy league school?!?!even with the dozens of books and magazines i've read on how to do this, along with my mom and grandma watching my every move, i still can't shake the first-time parent jitters. Then, on the other hand, i can just imagine how much fun this is going to be. I mean, think about it. i get to help formulate this little mind. teach her stuff, like music and basketball (muhaha, she's a duke fan, she just doesn't know it yet). we'll get to play, and sing, and laugh and dance and all kinds of fun stuff. she'll color me pictures and want to finger paint. not to mention i get to be the hot mom at the pta meetings... I'm just trying to take it all in and learn fast so i can get back on my own two feet while carrying her as soon as possible. its crazy and exciting. with all of the insecurities and other thoughts running through my head, i can't help but feel like everything is going to be ok. getting pregnant and having a baby has brought more focus to my life than i ever would have imagined. its made me see where exactly my old life was headed and given me a new reason to reach for everything that i want to achieve and work ten times harder for what i want. sure i was doing ok before- my grades are pretty good, i was going to graduate a year early, whatever. but life was boring and i was getting sick of doing the same stuff over and over. now i have a motivation to push myself into finishing, even if i graduate in december instead of august, and to do as good as i can because i not only have to do it for myself, but for my daughter too. everything i do i want to do to set an example for her. ok, enough of the sentimental bs... this isn't lifetime. and i think i'm just delerious from lack of sleep. i need a nap | |
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| who's glad the semester is over? lets just say the past month has been... i don't know... unreal?! never would have expected... life's gonna be crazy from here on out... why is it 80 degrees in december? and people think texas is the best state... having no work is great... i've seen 3 seasons of nip/tuck and 2 of grey's anatomy, plus more than my share of scrubs on comedy central... life is good. i'd share more about whats going on but i'm still thinking about it... and its hard :( (not that thinking for me in general is not hard) on a lighter note... my gpa rose by .02... harvard grad school, here i come. | |
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| This is my halloween pumpkin. i know, its great. muh hahahaha 
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| i have absolutely no money. the month of september totally drained me. and if entergy sends me one more $200+ electricty bill, i am going to drive to new orleans (that is where i mail my bill) and bomb the plant. just kidding, i'm probably now on a government watch list for that comment. but i will do something drastic, like switch to be amish because i doubt their electricty bills are high. anyway, i still have no money so i've been trying to think of easy ways to make money fast.... without doing much work. here's what i have so far.... 1. sell drugs- i don't think this is a very good idea as it is a) illegal and b) i don't think i'm mean enough to actually enforce payment on anyone. however, i do hear drug pushers make quite a bit of money (look at scarface... minus that end scene where the DEA blows him to pieces). it was just an idea. 2. become an egg donor- i saw an advertisement for this on a bathroom wall advertisement billboard thing. all you have to do is be a)female b) disease free and c) actually i don't think there is a c... yes i know. you're thinking, bathroom wall, can this be legit? but it does offer $5,000+ and all you do is spread your legs. its like being a high class hooker, without the sex. 3. become the next anna nicole smith- all i have to do is find some old rich tycoon, marry him before he dies, drug him so i won't have to survive a wedding night, and wait. cruel, yes. but will i have to work. NO! and thats all that i'm looking for. | | |
| ok so did anyone see the plane run into the downtown NYC building today? I was walking into one of the academic buildings on campus and i look up to see CNN coverage of what i (at the time) assumed to be the latest terrorist attack. Only to find out it was a some Yankee (an actual baseball player) who crashed a small aircraft into the apartment building. hey man, i know you guys got knocked out of the playoffs but this is a little extreme.... anyway, for some reason, the city of huntsville has been boycotting all resturants in town for the past two weeks. this is not good for the town economy. ok, this is REALLY not good for my bank account. sigh, the world would be better if i were richer. or maybe if electricty bills didn't run so high. | | |
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